Offsides..

I've been smoking for almost 12 years now and wonder if i will one day quit. In the back of my mind (sometimes!!) there's no question that i would. But i wonder when and i wonder why.

Why is it that knowing how bad something is doesn't stop you from doing it?

Why are (some) people so repressed? Why don't people tell you how they're really feeling instead of pretending that everything's fine? To put up a good front? So that they don't end up in other people's bad books? Then what kind of person are you??

Why are some people born with no options in their lives? But is this really true? Or is this something we tell ourselves based on our already skewed perception on things?

Why are some people so hung up on the most trivial things and just refuse to let go? Can't they see that they are bigger things to worry about? That one little thing will not result in the world coming to an end?

I would like to think that people around me have no qualms about voicing how they feel. I'd like to believe that they are not afraid to tell people that they think something's not going the way it should, or if they're annoyed or pissed off about something.

In a way i expect that from everyone around me. If i can't take critisms then how the hell am i supposed to improve right?

Someone told me once that people generally expect honesty and respect out of a relationship, whatever that may be. If you don't have that then you have nothing to base your relationship or friendship on.

Of course, as we grow older, unfortunately, our actions have more consequence. Maybe that's why people are more repressed as they grow older. Maybe that's why some people would rather bottle everything up in the hope that it'll go away.

Understand one thing, i am not saying you should go round telling everyone how much they suck. I'm talking about those you value, those you feel mean something to you. And this could apply to your partner, friends, family, whatever.

Believe it or not, there's value in being open and honest.