Closure...

I found out today my ex is in another country....In a great job and possibly seeing someone!!

Why did i think it necessary to blog this? Because in a lot of ways it's very significant to me. How do i feel about it?

Well...a mixture of feelings really. You know that feeling..the day comes when your ex is actually over you...I think it's never a nice thing. Regardless of your current circumstances. I think if you think about it, deep down it's also a blow to the ego. But the ego is something i can handle.

If i'm honest, i feel happy for him. I mean of course, i am also filled with sadness to a cetain degree, and i feel a little wistful...But i think that's normal at the end of a 5-year relationship.

But this was the lid i needed. I can now close this chapter of my life. I believe that everyone is in your life for a reason and for my ex, he was there during my healing process. During the time when i was learning to live again, learning to forgive, and figuring out what the world has to offer after so many years in darkness. And he was there to show me the way.

And i hope that in some ways, i helped him too.

And so my journey continues. But this is what life is all about right? The stumbling blocks that life put there for you to get over is so that you pick yourself up, and start again. This is how we learn.

Time heals everything as they say. And although i am a little sad, i feel as though a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders.

I'm seeing someone now (sorta!!) and i really want to see how it goes. It's not easy...anything worth something never is...but i want to see it through..and see where it takes us. I'm more than a little scared and to be honest, a little disillusioned after my last relationship but if you don't put your heart on the line then nothing goes, really.

And here it begins...