Dilemma of Disenchantments...

Been feeling a little tired lately..not talking about physical tiredness (although that's happening a bit too) but inside i'm tired. I feel a little restless, a little...discontented, perhaps is a better word.

I think a stock take is in order. I think i need to re-evaluate my work situation. Been thinking a lot about going back to care-work. Only problem is, that type of work in this country means struggling to make ends meet...especially for someone who lacks experience or whatever experience culminated was years ago...

*sigh*...working in a big corporation has its perks obviously...and the mad rush to the top usually fills us with enough adrenaline to make an elephant dance. But sometimes, it's hard to see what it's all about...

It's hard to see the point of it all...some say it's the sense of achievement, that satisfaction you get from a job well-done, knowing that you've earned that credit, that respect, from all the sweat and sacrifices that you've had to make.

And although i do have that to gain, i don't have that sense of fulfilment....the sense of satisfaction i get from solving an issue, or completing a difficult task, does not fill me with contentment...

So maybe i do need to take a long hard look. Or maybe all i'm experiencing is prolonged blues...