Damn it...damn it....DAMMIT!!!

People, guess what i found out at the weekend??????????

My ex may have been cheating on me!!!! DAMMIT!!!!!!!

Let me be clear here. I am probably the last person who should be angry about the fact that he (may have) cheated. But the thing that really gets to me? Is the fact that it was done while we were living together!!!

You know what this means? This means that there i was at the time, completely oblivious, thinking everything's hunky-dory (of course we had our ups and downs but which couple doesn't??) and he was cheating???

Ughh...i hate being made to look like fool...i really do...

Like i said earlier, i have not been an angel either but...well...i have my own justification (which i can't reveal here) but trust me...they are justified!

And here i was feeling all guilty about things and trying my best to minimize hurt wherever i can, most of the time at MY expense and then i find out about this!!

And come to think of it, in my last blog i said that he's now seeing someone? I was thinking about it over the weekend and unless he's miraculously established a proper relationship in a week, he's been cheating on me anyway whilst away!

Again, not my place to be all judgemental and self-righteous about it but what the hell was the whole i-desperately-want-to-get-back-together all about??? And to think of all the tears i shed for thinking i was the cause of so much hurt...

Again i say..damn it...damn it...DAMMIT!!!...

Hahaha the irony of it all i tell you...leaves me wondering where the hell was i when the world decided to change the way it works..

But you know what? I'm actually ok...like i said, i just hate looking like a complete idiot..that little fact does gnaw at me a bit if i let it...but hey...what the hell right?

I was told at the weekend to let it go as it's all in the past now and i agree whole-heartedly. Past is past...i have bigger and better things for the future. We let go of the past and the future opens bright..(or something like that anyway haha).