I've been smoking for almost 12 years now and wonder if i will one day quit. In the back of my mind (sometimes!!) there's no question that i would. But i wonder when and i wonder why.
Why is it that knowing how bad something is doesn't stop you from doing it?
Why are (some) people so repressed? Why don't people tell you how they're really feeling instead of pretending that everything's fine? To put up a good front? So that they don't end up in other people's bad books? Then what kind of person are you??
Why are some people born with no options in their lives? But is this really true? Or is this something we tell ourselves based on our already skewed perception on things?
Why are some people so hung up on the most trivial things and just refuse to let go? Can't they see that they are bigger things to worry about? That one little thing will not result in the world coming to an end?
I would like to think that people around me have no qualms about voicing how they feel. I'd like to believe that they are not afraid to tell people that they think something's not going the way it should, or if they're annoyed or pissed off about something.
In a way i expect that from everyone around me. If i can't take critisms then how the hell am i supposed to improve right?
Someone told me once that people generally expect honesty and respect out of a relationship, whatever that may be. If you don't have that then you have nothing to base your relationship or friendship on.
Of course, as we grow older, unfortunately, our actions have more consequence. Maybe that's why people are more repressed as they grow older. Maybe that's why some people would rather bottle everything up in the hope that it'll go away.
Understand one thing, i am not saying you should go round telling everyone how much they suck. I'm talking about those you value, those you feel mean something to you. And this could apply to your partner, friends, family, whatever.
Believe it or not, there's value in being open and honest.
Saturday, October 20, 2007
Friday, October 12, 2007
I wish....
I wish there was a manual for us all. I wish there was a book i could buy in the bookstore entitled JM's Life Questions Answered. But then again, i reckon searching for these life answers is half the fun of living. The other half will be finding it.
To top it all off, to complete your life is to live it.
To top it all off, to complete your life is to live it.
The Four-Eyed Prejudice
It's soooo quiet in the office today. For some weird reason i have an image of an out-of-the-way rural western town with delapidated salons and a lone ranger wondering about in this ghost of a town....
Yes, i'm rambling and my imagination is running crazy wild. I think almost absolute silence tends to do that to you.
Everyone (with the exception of a handful of people) is gone for the Raya break. I know this sounds funny but i kinda enjoy the quiet. It's almost unheard of to be in the office and not have any emails and phone calls (unless you're one of those who come in at weekends). I find that i can focus better with the lack of interruptions, get more work done and more importantly, no stress.
I wonder if that makes me a nerd. What's your idea of a nerd?? (geek, four-eyes, dweeb..whatever you want to call it). A typical picture would be of course, someone who wears those HUGE 80's thick-rimmed glasses (which is too big for him that he has to push them up his nose every 5 seconds or so), wears trousers which the tailor had too much fun with, and..heaven forbid...suspenders.
I guess they also think that PCs are man's greatest creation and Microsoft is God.
So, for "normal" people like us (".." because normal is soooo subjective...if you don't believe me, ask any crazy person if he thinks he's normal...saying that, "crazy" is pretty subjective as well...hmmm...), who like gadgets, love our PS2s and probably can't live without a PC, are we considered nerds??
I've been called a nerd before and apparently i've got nerdy friends cos we have the same interests. Half the time i'm not sure if i should be insulted!! :)
But then again (and i'm being extremely shallow here) if you don't LOOK like a nerd, it's ok right? You can always pretend to be cool to the outside world...haha.
Yes, i'm rambling and my imagination is running crazy wild. I think almost absolute silence tends to do that to you.
Everyone (with the exception of a handful of people) is gone for the Raya break. I know this sounds funny but i kinda enjoy the quiet. It's almost unheard of to be in the office and not have any emails and phone calls (unless you're one of those who come in at weekends). I find that i can focus better with the lack of interruptions, get more work done and more importantly, no stress.
I wonder if that makes me a nerd. What's your idea of a nerd?? (geek, four-eyes, dweeb..whatever you want to call it). A typical picture would be of course, someone who wears those HUGE 80's thick-rimmed glasses (which is too big for him that he has to push them up his nose every 5 seconds or so), wears trousers which the tailor had too much fun with, and..heaven forbid...suspenders.
I guess they also think that PCs are man's greatest creation and Microsoft is God.
So, for "normal" people like us (".." because normal is soooo subjective...if you don't believe me, ask any crazy person if he thinks he's normal...saying that, "crazy" is pretty subjective as well...hmmm...), who like gadgets, love our PS2s and probably can't live without a PC, are we considered nerds??
I've been called a nerd before and apparently i've got nerdy friends cos we have the same interests. Half the time i'm not sure if i should be insulted!! :)
But then again (and i'm being extremely shallow here) if you don't LOOK like a nerd, it's ok right? You can always pretend to be cool to the outside world...haha.
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