Welcome 2008

So here we are again, with the new year just around the corner...literally. And as usual, i always blog about it. What lessons have we learned, what we could do better, what not to do so much of, or at all, bla bla bla..

So what does the new year mean for you?

I think a new year always signifies new beginnings..whatever that may be. It's not the whole numerical calender thingy, but more of a symbolic sort of thing.

Since it's the NEW year, might as well have NEW beginnings right? When else would you have the excuse to justify your sudden need to stop smoking for example, or to be nicer, or whatever.

But anyway, i'm not gonna talk much about it. I think whatever resolutions you have is yours to keep anyway. Whatever you want the new year to bring for you, it's up to you to make that happen.

Let's just have fun welcoming the new year and let's hope that it's a great one :)

Nightmare on ** Street

There i was sleeping soundly and comfortably, only to have it interrupted by a freaky nightmare. Ok, let me see if i can put it in words articulately..

I was where i am and in the dream, i could hear the sound of rushing water from my bathroom. It sounded like someone was filling a pail of water up and then proceeded to pour it on the floor.

I then got a little freaked out (i'm still dreaming here) and got up and knocked on my sis' door. When she opened it, i asked if i could sleep in the room cause i could hear...."the water??" she finished my sentence sympathetically. I said yes and she said sure, i could sleep in her room.

So i got into her bed and she got up and said that she had to do her wash for the morning prayers so i said ok. As i was lying there just about to fall asleep, someone appeared in front of me and held me down!!

I tried to scream for my sis but could only groan pathetically. The freaky thing is, i then saw my sis come out of her bathroom and she was standing behind this lady, just observing this whole spectacle.

I was struggling hard to get out of her grip, still trying to scream and basically woke myself up screaming...

And found myself in my own bed.

So it's fair to say that i had a shit night sleep and still feel a little sleepy now...*sigh*...

Men Don't Live Here Anymore

I was out last night at my usual club spot doing the usual do. At one point in the night, we noticed a girl whom no one knows hanging around the usual area. This girl then progresses to throw herself at DM. And when i say she was throwing herself, i mean throwing herself at him...at fully as she can.

It's fair to say that DM's line of work is bound to attract many many admirers for many reasons. It is up to the guy as to how far he wants to take it right?

So anyway, towards the end of the night, things were looking very cosy between the two. Which is all fine and dandy if he was single. Problem was of course, he's not.

So there we were, the few of us, observing from afar...i think for some of us there was a feeling of almost disbelief mixed with amazement together with the self-satisfaction that the observed were proving old theories correct.

Suddenly a friend of mine said to me.."the saddest thing is that eventhough everyone knows her girlfriend, no one will tell her about it". To be honest, that stopped me in my tracks a little bit. How true. That happened to me.

Someone told me last night that men are never to be trusted, no matter who they are. Men will always be men and they will always be weak. Sometimes you just have to turn a blind eye. What you do is make sure they love you, and put a hundred percent effort into your relationship. What he does outside of that, sometimes you just have no control over.

But can we live like that? Can we really, because we can't get what we really want, settle for second best?

With cynicism like that (sometimes with completely valid reasons), how can we all strive for that fairytale ending??

Stories and more..

Hello all...been a while and so much has happened.

For a start, i did my first costume party a few weeks ago...went as Cat Woman hahaha!! If nothing else, it was funny and i actually get to wear my high-boots in KL!!

Then had my 30th (yikes) birthday party which was awesome!! It was actually a shared party and S celebrated his..uh..i don't think i'll put his age in my blog just in case!!!

And last weekend i went on a road-trip with a couple of my girlies. Although we spent way too much time driving up and back down, the trip itself was actually really cool and we had fun. It's nice to do something different for a change i guess, which breaks the monotony of working and sleeping everyday.

So anyways, things are going pretty ok i guess, with the exception of a few stresses here and there.

My BIG issue is moving slowly but surely although i have had some problems with it..*sigh*...why is it i sometimes feel like i've made progress only to suddenly find myself 2 steps back? It's tiring me out a little to be honest. Maybe that's why i haven't been able to get myself out of this tired feeling...

I wonder if we'll ever get out of the habit of hurting people...

But let's not think about that now. I have 4 more days of leave and need to make the most out of it!! I've posted some pictures from the Penang trip below..enjoysssssss ;)

Emotional 86

originally posted - 18th November 2007

You know how some people are emotionally unavailable? I wonder how that happens. I wonder if people 'contract' emotional unavailability at some point in their lives.

And i wonder if they get over it.

Like the thick layer of pollution that shrouds a city, some people have a block that stops their hearts from feeling completely.

Whatever the reason; past experience, fear, natural tendency; it affects and obstructs human interactions from working as it should.

Maybe i'm getting too philosophical but when it is introduced into consciousness, we have to take stock and figure out what's happening. Has it always been there but we've just been unaware of its existence? Or is it something that crept up on us and managed to get hold during those blissful ignorant stints of our lives?

Ban's off!!!

OMG how long has it been??? Sooooo miss blogging but i can't seem to find the time to sit and pen my thoughts down.

But i discovered (purely by accident) that Blogger is not banned at work anymore yeay!! Not sure if i should speak too soon though as what may happen is that i come in on Friday and get the stupid 403 FORBIDDEN message again!!

Yeah so i should be working but since it's only 20 mins till lunch time...

My status has now been updated to what (sounds like) "sleeveless" hahhaha...you know what i mean.

So anyways, as i was told, i will now be re-acquainted with my bed..hmmm...not sure if that's a good thing or not...

I will definitely (hopefully) be blogging more from now on though..need to write...i miss putting my thoughts in order.