Rage of Wars..

I know blogging is not the "write all be all" kind of thing but seeing that i have not blogged since February, the past few weeks the longing has been too much to bear. Not that i'm on any hiatus or the hermit living path but not having as easily of an access as i usually do does make things a little complex.

I love it though, the release through penning of thoughts.

The trouble i have now is trying to figure out where to start.

Maybe i'll start with the fire incident? And the amount of stress that came with it?

Or maybe the shitty recent week where i've just experienced the worst PMS in the history of Marina-World. I guess that was coupled with the other shitty thing that happened.

Maybe i should start with that instead.

When something you never thought will end actually does, how do you find it in yourself to cope with it? I've recently realised how much a tug-of-war of the mind can create havoc on the heart. How do you learn the balance between being rational about something and being overwhelmed by the emotions it ignites?

When your whole world changes, do you learn to change with it?

I was told that i had too much of a tendency to take on too much upon myself. That's ok if they were all mine to take anyway. But what if they aren't?

Again, how do i learn to balance? I've always thought that that would come with practice. You do it enough times and you learn which side lies where.

I was wrong.

Everything you experience in your life is different. Not one issue or dilemma is the same. They may have similarities but if you really look into them, the difference is astounding.

So maybe that's the better lesson.

* i know this post is hanging but i can't seem to break the mental penning barrier right now..*